The faith to fail.

Could you pray this prayer?

As I’ve spent the summer recharging, resetting, and re-examining in preparation for the inevitable long hours and slight chaos of my book launch in October, I’ve been thinking. A lot. There is so much I can’t wait to share with you. I think my writing will reflect the lessons I’m learning.

But there are some things that are just clawing to get out that I can’t keep in anymore. This post is one of them. It focuses on a prayer I’ve prayed several times this summer, and that prayer is birthed out of a lesson I’m learning. About myself, about God, and about this life.

Here’s the prayer:

Lord, give me the strength and the faith to fail.

Oh, how that little prayer has wrecked me. Absolutely wrecked me. There is so much behind it.

For starters, God has been showing me how defensive I can get. At the smallest things. But what’s behind that defensiveness? For me, a major factor is the fear of failure. How does that work? Well, to be wrong in my mind has always meant failure. To not know someth…